Friends & Family

Well, I've been staying away from relationships, especially ones that I know aren't healthy for me. (Even tho it's been hard sometimes.) But this past week, I've decided it's time to get back in the game and try again. Or should I say, I've set aside my fear and decided I have to try - or I'll never find happiness keeping everyone out.

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I'm finding it hard lately - very hard. Things are going fine really - all things considered. But lonliness is setting in. This year has not gone the way I'd hoped. My son has been sick for months and we're no closer to a solution, my ex-A is getting married (and while I'm happy for him - I'm sad at the same time since I'm alone), and the guy I thought was the one of my dreams vanished from my life almost overnight.

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Life is so cyclical sometimes. Just when I'm doing great, something happens to pull me back down. So many things have been happening, not all bad by any stretch, but I'm feeling like life is getting SO hectic and out of control!

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It's been awhile since I've posted. I've been meaning to get around to it, but sometimes life gets in the way. Today, someone invited me to their website, and I saw on it a list of quotes. One of them particularly caught my eye, as it was very close to the way I've decided to look at life...

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I've been feeling under the weather for the last few days. I also found that although I've been in a really good place the last month or so, I found myself slipping back into self-doubt and insecurity. I started wondering why the two seemed to go hand in hand.

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I remember being a child and feeling like this time of year was the most magical and wonderful time. I had hopes and dreams of what gifts I would get and what years to come would hold. I felt that each year would be filled with new events that would bring more happiness and love to my life. I was excited this time of year at the prospect of the new year and of things to come. I would be in the driver's seat and have my own family some day...

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Things have been a bit crazy for me the last few weeks. My A had been missing in action again (well, actually he's still M.I.A)...no word for over a month now. I was just beside myself - but what could I do? Nothing! And then the most amazing thing happened...

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Things have been very busy for me lately. I've been making sure I take time to do things I want to (like catching up on a few TV shows I have saved) but work has been frenzied and with my computer endeavors, I sometimes feel there's not enough hours in the day. I've reached a comfortable "cruising altitude" again in my recovery and tho I'm not making forward steps in leaps and bounds, at least I no longer feel as if I'm sliding down out of control.

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I've had an awful cold this last week. Instead of trying to take care of everyone else, I've been focusing on taking care of me. Lots of rest and sleep...the chores can wait. My son is old enough now to do some basic fending for himself, and it's probably good that he learns to do so. Letting go of even the simplest things can be hard, but sometimes you just have to - to care for yourself!

My A is 4000 miles away and I've no idea when/if we're going to end up together. You'd think I'd get jealous from time to time. But what I've been dealing with this week has nothing to do with him...it's all about my ex-A.

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